It has been a tough road to hoe. In retrospect, it hasn’t been as bad as it feels at times. Life is always pushes, asking more than you think it possible to give. Deciding to struggle, overcome, moving over/through obstacles eventually becomes par for the course you’ve set yourself on.

In the last several months I have realized how doubt, self-criticism, and paralysis can at times be my mo. I continue working hard to place my focus the potential and opportunity for growth rather than the lack in life. Everyday I open up a little more to the messy process of living life.

I am where I am. But it’s not where I’m going to be and definitely not where I’ll end up. Doubt at your own peril. As my friend EP said this week, “The ancestors did not guide us here, to this place, in this moment, into each others lives, for any of us to fail.”

38 days till comps. Voy a luchar hasta el final.

My Comps lists and a calendar of how I will organize my workload this semester. I will also be including updates on how my process develops through till exams in May.

180 Books, ?? Articles, and copious notes all culminating in 3 exams in late April early May.

3 Courses

1 Draft of a Dissertation Prospectus

I will be coming up with a completely worked out plan of attack this week based on the preliminary work I’ve been doing the last few months. Stay tuned for more tomorrow.